I did it! I hit 2123 (give or take) words today. 1497 of them were on “Harder to Forget” and 624 of them were on “Centennial Park”. I wanted to get as much of the opening of “Harder to Forget” out of my mind and onto paper. It is starting to shape up to be an adorable meeting of friends, and you can see the little bits of both sides of the story starting to emerge. I find it harder to write Olivia, and that is a new problem for me. I never have issues with my female characters. I usually struggle with my need to make the men I write some sort of apology for the men of the world. But this time, I am finding it hard to write Olivia. She seems so sure of herself, and I am currently struggling with that in myself. It makes her a challenge. I don’t want her to fold where I would, and that sometimes makes me feel very uncomfortable. I am a girl who, for better or worse, never wants to make anyone feel bad, even when they have hurt my feelings. She is very much not that. She has tried to set fire to the bridge between her and Jude for years, but he sees through it. He sees her feelings for him, and his wanting to keep that around for him when it is convenient for him is part of what makes him such a charming asshole in the first timeline. I think part of why she is so difficult is she says everything I wish I could say. And that is the beautiful part of being a writer: all those things you wish you could have said can make their way into your work.

Spencer.